Why?

Every time I close my eyes I see that image
While I am restless sleep
When I see that picture my heart skips
When I wake again to see that picture going on in my head
I feel so lost, like crying all the time
Why did you do this?
Why you forget everything as if nothing had happened?
Was it all a dream?
Do not want to think more
I wanted to tear my heart and throw it far away
When longer this will last?